Which is way better than backin' up. like that lady on the auto tuned version of the newscast on You Tube. It's a very funny video. If you haven't seen it already, then you definitely should. It is hilarious!
But anyway, I am packing up some of my clothes and things because I am going to GA for a whole week to see my aunt. I have been going to see her every year I believe since I was only 10. We always have fun. And this time, my mom will be going for a couple of days. We'll be able to do all kinds of stuff and I am pretty excited.
So, it is light outside now. I can't believe I have stayed up the whole night. I haven't pulled an all nighter in a long time. Certainly not one this summer. I think the last time I pulled an all nighter was my second semester in college during exam times. Oh, freshman year! haha
I do have some new news that I find exciting. I actually have some nails to speak of!! For the longest time (like since I can remember) I have always bitten my nails. I believe it has turned into a nervous habit unfortunately. I love having even just the little bit of nails that I have. I just have to keep it up not biting my nails. It seems that I grow them out for a while but I always end up biting them off. Not this time. Not this time. I will prevail!
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But anyways, I do not want to admit this but I guess I will. I kind of want to see the Red Riding Hood movie. I am a little ashamed I guess because it sounds like a new spin of that Twilight movie. Which I did not like. I know a lot of people like all of that Twilight business. And that's okay. But it's not my style. But this is supposed to be Little Red Riding Hood. And now because of all of the Twihype, it is turning this story to sound like Twilight. Which when I think about it, since most people like Twilight I guess it would make sense. But still, I mean, really?!? First the teens fiction section and now movies that are supposed to be stories from my childhood? I think it has gone too far. And if it hasn't, then it will soon. Oh well, I will get off my rant for now.
By the way, sorry for getting all deep on you guys on the last post. But I have decided that I am going to take control and I will beat this. No matter what, no giving up. well, I guess that's all for now. Until next time...
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
This is Real, This is Me
So, lucky for you, I just happen to be in the soul bearing mood. haha. But anyways, serious time.
I have always struggled with my weight. It is something that has always followed me like an unwanted visitor. It has really gotten to me in the past. Well, when I went to college, I just started to make better decisions. I only drank water. But that was probably because it was so hot outside that drinking anything else was out of the question. But anyways, I started eating a lot more vegetables and being in college, I walked everywhere. Pretty soon, I started to just lose weight. It was a great feeling. And I loved it.
I started to gain more self confidence. I didn't look at myself as what I was but more of what I was becoming to be. And it felt great!! I loved the new me. But.... (there's always a but isn't there. haha) but, I somehow lost sight of things. I just made poor decisions in my eating choices. You know, sometimes, it's easier to not make as good decisions as far as eating wise. And it's always the excuses. I had a paper due and I was stressed. Or I couldn't fit the gym in to my schedule this week because I had this or that to do.
Being at home for the summer hasn't helped things much either. Not that it's my parents fault. Nope, I am taking full responsibility because that's where it should be. My poor choices didn't necessarily stop. You know, weight loss is just like a battle for anything else. It is a day by day kind of thing. I didn't sit back and realize the consequences that a string of little bad decisions would cost me.
Before I knew it, I gained some weight back. Not all of it thank goodness. And I won't. I know that it is not healthy and I will not allow myself to go back to that. Ever. I know that by just making good decisions, can lead to more good decisions and better health if I want it. And I do. More than I probably know. To tell you the truth, I sometimes feel like a thin girl trapped in a bigger body. But I can't let myself get discouraged. I won't.
I think the biggest realization that I needed to get healthy was when my brother was diagnosed with Diabetes. I believe it is one of the reasons that I need to get healthy. I know what you're thinking. Just because he has Diabetes doesn't mean you will get it. And I know that. But see, the other thing is, Diabetes is genetic. My dad was diagnosed with it when I was a kid. My grandma on my dad's side has it and my papa has it. Therefore, my concern is therefore heightened.
And I want you to know that by writing this, I am not expecting pity, sympathy, or anything else. I really have no idea why I am telling all this. And on the internet. I guess I just felt like I needed an outlet and this is what I came up with. So, here it is.
Okay, so enough of the sad stuff. I am an eternal optimist most times. Sometimes, there is a dash of reality thrown in there. But for the most part, I like to stay optimistic. I know I can beat this. I will be thin eventually. I just have to dig down deep and find that motivation, remember that each decision I make is important, and never give up hope. And most importantly, I know that I cannot do this on my own. I am definitely going to need God's help with this one. It's more than likely that I have failed all of the other times because I did not seek His help. I will beat this.
So, if you are reading this and you are in the same place as me, just know that you are beautiful no matter what you weigh. Society tries to tell us that we aren't beautiful unless we fit into their size 4 cookie cutter model mold. But I refuse to believe that. We may have some not so good days, but do not give up hope! You are fearfully and wonderfully made by the Creator. And you know what? He loves you just the way you are!! Even when you don't love yourself. And if you ever need any encouragement or someone to be there for you, I am here. Even if I don't know you personally. I hope that this will touch someone. Even if it doesn't, that's okay. But I really hope that it does. Until next time...
I have always struggled with my weight. It is something that has always followed me like an unwanted visitor. It has really gotten to me in the past. Well, when I went to college, I just started to make better decisions. I only drank water. But that was probably because it was so hot outside that drinking anything else was out of the question. But anyways, I started eating a lot more vegetables and being in college, I walked everywhere. Pretty soon, I started to just lose weight. It was a great feeling. And I loved it.
I started to gain more self confidence. I didn't look at myself as what I was but more of what I was becoming to be. And it felt great!! I loved the new me. But.... (there's always a but isn't there. haha) but, I somehow lost sight of things. I just made poor decisions in my eating choices. You know, sometimes, it's easier to not make as good decisions as far as eating wise. And it's always the excuses. I had a paper due and I was stressed. Or I couldn't fit the gym in to my schedule this week because I had this or that to do.
Being at home for the summer hasn't helped things much either. Not that it's my parents fault. Nope, I am taking full responsibility because that's where it should be. My poor choices didn't necessarily stop. You know, weight loss is just like a battle for anything else. It is a day by day kind of thing. I didn't sit back and realize the consequences that a string of little bad decisions would cost me.
Before I knew it, I gained some weight back. Not all of it thank goodness. And I won't. I know that it is not healthy and I will not allow myself to go back to that. Ever. I know that by just making good decisions, can lead to more good decisions and better health if I want it. And I do. More than I probably know. To tell you the truth, I sometimes feel like a thin girl trapped in a bigger body. But I can't let myself get discouraged. I won't.
I think the biggest realization that I needed to get healthy was when my brother was diagnosed with Diabetes. I believe it is one of the reasons that I need to get healthy. I know what you're thinking. Just because he has Diabetes doesn't mean you will get it. And I know that. But see, the other thing is, Diabetes is genetic. My dad was diagnosed with it when I was a kid. My grandma on my dad's side has it and my papa has it. Therefore, my concern is therefore heightened.
And I want you to know that by writing this, I am not expecting pity, sympathy, or anything else. I really have no idea why I am telling all this. And on the internet. I guess I just felt like I needed an outlet and this is what I came up with. So, here it is.
Okay, so enough of the sad stuff. I am an eternal optimist most times. Sometimes, there is a dash of reality thrown in there. But for the most part, I like to stay optimistic. I know I can beat this. I will be thin eventually. I just have to dig down deep and find that motivation, remember that each decision I make is important, and never give up hope. And most importantly, I know that I cannot do this on my own. I am definitely going to need God's help with this one. It's more than likely that I have failed all of the other times because I did not seek His help. I will beat this.
So, if you are reading this and you are in the same place as me, just know that you are beautiful no matter what you weigh. Society tries to tell us that we aren't beautiful unless we fit into their size 4 cookie cutter model mold. But I refuse to believe that. We may have some not so good days, but do not give up hope! You are fearfully and wonderfully made by the Creator. And you know what? He loves you just the way you are!! Even when you don't love yourself. And if you ever need any encouragement or someone to be there for you, I am here. Even if I don't know you personally. I hope that this will touch someone. Even if it doesn't, that's okay. But I really hope that it does. Until next time...
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