So, remember when I told you like...yesterday that God is faithful and He provides opportunities in our lives and He is AWESOME!?! Well, God never ceases to amaze me. And when I say this, I'm not meaning it like just as the regulatory response but really just leaves me in awe at how amazing He really is. Like, just when I think or when I want to be a light for Him and act more like Christ, He challenges me in the most wonderful way. One of my girls that I mentor through our school came to me and talked to me after class and she was sharing with me and just talking about what she has gone through and her struggles. And I got to share the love and the forgiveness of Christ with her. She ended up accepting Jesus into her heart today. God is SO good! Just when I think that I am not sufficient, I am weak. But He is strong. And he makes me stronger and He has my back.
I haven't shared this yet on this blog but I have been feeling a call to missions for a while to go somewhere international. I was waiting on God to tell me when and where. When the opportunity for Spain with my college group presented itself I was like, okay God. I'm guessing that this is it. I still wasn't too sure. But as time has passed on, with being in the Word and really praying and meditating over it, I believe that Spain is it. I couldn't be more excited! And even though my thoughts and insecurities weren't openly expressed, they were still there. In my subconscious and in the back of my mind, I was like but God, I just submitted and gave my life to You a little over a year ago. Who am I to think that I can lead people to Christ when I feel so immature and green in my faith. But God has been faithful and I know now that those insecurities come straight from the devil trying to convince me that I was inadequate and playing on my weakness that I'm not enough.
But as I said before, the Lord always finds a way to reassure His children. And I definitely felt that today after I had the chance to lead my now sister in Christ, Claudia, to a relationship with Jesus Christ. It was just as much I believe an eye opening experience for me as it was for her. I definitely think and believe that God utilized being a mentor and my obedience and willingness to bring someone to Himself. And it's really interesting because I was just telling God that I needed signs for what I am supposed to do. I need a sign for Spain. That was the main thing. And I think that God definitely delivered on that request. He took my insecurities and showed me in a real way that with Him, anything is possible. That if I just trust in Him, He can do anything He wants to through me.
He is teaching me new things everyday. And this was one of the best lessons He could teach me. Because now, I have a new sister in Christ! Her name is now written in the Lambs Book of Life. And the fact that God can use me to do that, I was and still am thrilled. God continues to be good. He shows me everyday even the things I know, He shows me in real ways that He is sufficient. He is really all we need. It is so comforting that the Creator of the Universe is on my side. He always has my back. I know especially now not to doubt myself. Because with God by my side, I can do anything. Literally, anything. Until next time :)
Friday, October 28, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Too Blessed, Too Stressed
Well ladies and gentleman, it is getting about that time...the end of the semester I mean. The time when everyone is just a little more stressed than usual. You're winding down to the home stretch. Did you know we have a little under a month before Thanksgiving Break? Yes. That means a whole lot to cram into a month before exams start. Sounds fun doesn't it? Maybe a little crazy even? That's the life of a college student. My life. And you know what the crazy thing is that I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love college. I love even the challenges and the constant reminders that He is in control. Everything is up to the Creator of the universe. Kind of nice isn't it? I think so. But see the thing is that the human in me still seems to still get stressed. No matter how much I try and no matter how much I see God's provision and hand in everything I do. Like for example, I had 2 tests today one right after the other. And I was supposed to have a Biology test tomorrow. But like I said, the Lord provides and the biology test was moved to Monday. But yet I still spent like most of the week up until Wednesday worrying about it. It just shows how He is faithful and that when I am weak, He is strong. And I have to continually remind myself of that because I definitely forget even though I try not to. I remember that I still mess up and I still fall. But the great news is that I know He's there to catch me. My stress and my worries are nothing for my God. I know that I should remember before I get too stressed that He is and always will be in control. I will be too blessed to be stressed. That is my goal. I may need some reminding very soon with everything piling up. You can be my witness and try to help keep me in check. Stay tuned for next time for who knows what stories there will be in this crazy college girl world! So until next time :)
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