What Do I Know?

There is a video that is supposed to be posted above. If it's not, I apologize. This song has been stuck in my head for the past couple of weeks. I just can't seem to shake it. It's not a bad thing because it's a fantastic song. I think that this song was put in my head because a lot of the times, God becomes so comfortable to us. He becomes natural. At least for me, He becomes almost too natural. Too comfortable that we do not realize the full impact of who He really is. Now don't get me wrong, there needs to be that strong relationship between us and Christ. But I think it gets to the point to where we forget or don't realize ALL of who Christ is. What do we really know of Holy? I know our culture and world has a definition of holy. But what does it really mean? What all does holiness entail? Christ is so multifaceted and so complex that even beginning to understand holiness and all of who He is can seem overwhelming. Overwhelmingly wonderful. God is the only One who is truly holy. So in my mind, we have no worldly comparison to the true Holy One. So my question again is..... what do we really know about holiness?? Can our minds even begin to comprehend what that really is? On this earth, can we really understand?

What really blows my mind is that the Lord makes Himself so available to us. He offers Himself to us fully; He is like a never ending book and we just have to open it and dig down deep inside. And what is so cool about that is that every time we think we have things figured out, there's another twist to the story. He is all things. And what's also really complex and cool? God has always been the same. He's always been the same person. He's the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. He's always been this complex and overwhelmingly fantastic. He has always been Holy. He has always been well.....everything. It's really cool to think about.

And the coolest part of it all is that this amazingly fantastic person was willing to give their life. For us. And a cool bonus is that HE wants to get to know US. The Savior of the Universe wants to get to know us. Wow! Just. Wow. He wants us to know Him and He to know us. He doesn't want to just sit back and say, "Okay,I've done my part. Now you should know how awesome I am". Sure, He wants us to let others know of His glory and His grace. But He wants You to know Him in a totally personal and know how you take your coffee kind of way. I know that's probably not the best example but I just can't get over the magnificence of this. And He wants you to know Him.

So the thing is, do you think we would really know Jesus and His holiness if it were right in front of our faces? I would like to think so. But I don't really know. It was just something I was thinking. I hope that looking through and reading the Bible and through prayer that I would be able to know Him better and at the least catch glimpses of who He is and what holiness really is and what it means. I can only hope that He would reveal to me in time what it means.:)

Oh Management of Time

So... lately, I've been finding myself supremely busy. Like I have had a meeting or something like that every day just this week. I talked to my freshman about time management. I think the truth is that I needed what God was saying to me just as much as they might have. That hits me with a big realization... Am I spending too much time on other things and busying myself and taking time away from God? Taking time away that I can be at peace and spending time with Him and employ His saving grace and give back to Him? I know that doing these ministries here at school are great and I am enjoying the time to put into them. But lately these days what I seem to be giving the Lord is not enough. Like God is saying to me "Hey, you. Yeah you. I'm over here too." It just seems like the reading at night and prayer that I'm doing just isn't sufficing. I'm feeling a little restless and a little disjointed. I don't really know how to describe it. It's just this weird feeling that I'm getting. And I don't like it. Not at all. I know that I make mistakes. It's all because I live in the flesh. The only person that is perfect is the Lord Jesus Christ. But knowing that I can never be even close to perfect just seems to burden me even more. We are called to be like Christ. And I feel like I fall so short sometimes that I am the worst representation of what Christ is like. It burdens me that so many people are dying and will never know the love, the mercy, or the compassion of Jesus Christ that only He can give. My heart breaks at all of these things. He gave everything for me. He gave His sinless life for me and I feel like I only give Him the minimum sometimes. I cannot even fathom the love that Jesus Christ had for us that He would do something totally selfless for me who is more selfish than selfless. I know they say that you are your harshest critic but I fully believe that Jesus burdens us for things that we would look over, forget or miss. I think that I have definitely been missing out on time with Him. And I am going to vow myself to spend more time in the Word and more time in prayer because I don't want to give God just the minimum. I don't want to get so complacent with the way that my life is. I don't ever want to think that I'm good because Jesus saved me. That I'm good because I have put my faith and trust in Him. Because I'm not good. There is nothing good in me. It's all Jesus Christ working in and through me.