Well, you caught me. It's after 5:00 in the morning and a lot of why's are going through my mind at the moment. Like, why am I still awake? or Why did I choose to blog now? or how about why am I still worried about a job interview that's not for another 2 days? The same job interview that I decided that was in God's hands and what happens will be for the best and in His plan? Well see, I believe that's just it. God made me somewhat of a worrier. I said somewhat so I'm not a full fledged worrier but I do get concerned about things from time to time. Even though this is the case, I do not believe that it has anything to do with this uncharacteristic bout of insomnia. It might have been the caffeine now that I remember... But anyways, some things that have gone on lately, we no longer have our house in Greenwood anymore. Going there now I believe will still be painful because we no longer live there. I love that place so much. And though it is hard to let go, I know that this is just a part of the growing up process. Unwanted change is never easy at first though, is it?

You see the person to the left of me in the picture above? She is the most amazing woman and I am so blessed to call her my Mom. She is a wonderful woman of God and I consider her a fantastic mom, friend, and spiritual guide. She is so awesome. She had a birthday yesterday. Even though she thinks sees herself as getting old, I think that she's just getting better. I cannot tell her enough or express my gratitude and love. She has done so much for me and I am beyond words. Which if you know me is a pretty big feat.
Father's Day is coming up super soon and I am not afraid to admit, I am a daddy's girl. I love my dad. He has always been there for me whenever I needed him just like my mom. He used to take me to dance, help me with my math homework, and teaches me everyday. It is because of his constant voice teaching throughout my upbringing that I LOVE to sing. I see more of my parents in myself the older I get. And to tell you the truth, I don't mind it. I love my parents. They are great godly people and so much in love. I only hope to have the same relationship with my spouse as they have. But, being daddy's little girl (and the youngest) my dad declared I couldn't date until I was 40. We'll see how that goes. With those kinds of restrictions, I don't think I'd ever get married. Which he said is the whole point. He said something the other day that was sweet. He said, "I don't think I will ever think any man is good enough to want to let my baby girl go. Because you're special." I am so blessed to have such an amazing family.
Speaking of the fam, we're getting together tonight in about 12 hours actually, to celebrate father's day for my mom's dad. I love my grandparents and my extended family so it will be nice to see them. And I do miss Greenwood. Even with all its changing, it will still always be my Greenwood, where I "grew up". It's where my roots are. It's so weird though. It felt like I would never get out of high school. Here I am halfway through college now... WOW! What a wake up call! Lots of my friends that are my age are getting married, having babies, etc. already! It's crazy!! But even so, I find myself more focused than ever on my grades, my degree, and my career. I don't know if it's entirely a good thing. There needs to be time to "stop and smell the roses" don't you think? But with my "checklist" over my head with what are so many more things I feel the need to accomplish, I find it hard to make room for anything else. Maybe it will happen for me one day. Dad seems to think it will happen this year. I can only laugh at the thought. He is biased, you know. As I mentioned before I am his one and only little girl.
I have so many ideas, so many goals, and so many things I want to accomplish. Though I don't know what many of them are yet, I know that they are deep down inside just waiting for their chance to shine and take center stage. And for those days, I cannot wait. So, if you're reading this you're probably thinking "Isn't it about time that girl shut up?!" or "Man that girl can talk!" Which is true, I can. Especially when it is almost 6:00 in the morning and no sleep. I hope some of this rambling made any sense. I would ask that you would pray for my interview on Monday. I really want this job! I ask that you would pray for God's will and plan to be executed and seen throughout the entire process whether I get the job or not. I appreciate you making it this far and I know the journey through may have been tiring. I am blessed beyond measure and may God bless you!
Until next time...